Lulu Lockjaw

Thursday, December 30, 2010

New Skates....New Year!

New skate boots came in, just in time to break them in for the new year.  Not that I needed to boots, mine were only a couple years old, but I WANTED new boots.  They are SWEEEEET, they are shiny and new, and they make me feel like a superhero!

I can't wait for the season to start.  Team tryouts are right around the corner, and I am super pumped and so ready.  We've had a few retirements in the off season, but there are some pretty talented up chicks in our league, and I can't wait to skate with them. 

I've been coaching a little in the off season, and I love it.  Its given me the opportunity to give back and watch the girls.  My job as a veteran is to teach our rookie skaters everything I know.  Some of these girls are gonna skate on the All Star Team this year, and my job as a team mate is to get them to my skill level and experience.  Coaching also lights a fire under my ass.  These girls are gonna surpass me if I don't keep working as hard as I can.  There is no rest for us derby skaters, we have to continually grow and get better.  

We have a busy, competitive season ahead of us and right now "bring it on".  I am so ready to compete again, I am crawling out of my skin, I need something to focus on and work for.  Whether I am captain again for another season, my goal is to get us working as a team.  Teamwork, and skating ability is what wins games, and its what is gonna get us to Regionals this year.  Santa Cruz is a talented, dedicated, hard working league, and we deserve to go. 

We are heading to Vegas in February to play the Sin City Roller Girls, and I can't wait.  It will be our first WFTDA sanctioned game, then we head to Bremerton in March for Wild West Showdown, and we're off and running after that.  If we continue to work hard and grow together as a team and a league, Portland will be our end result.  Me and my shiny skates will be there!

Wednesday, December 8, 2010

Time to be Selfish or Selfless?

I know why I’m frustrated.  It’s because I want to control everything, but I don’t wanna be in charge.  I refused to run for the 2011 Board of Directors for a third term.  I need a break from the business side of the league.  I am the new WFTDA Liaison for our league.  My own committee of ME.  I am future thinking way too much.  I’m already skating in Portland at Western Regional’s and our team isn’t ranked and our season hasn’t started yet.  My biggest fear is that we won’t get ranked in time to qualify for Regional’s (because I know we have the skill to get there)!  I have been working on getting our schedule set for 2011 and I still need to fill two dates for the A team at home (May 21 and Sep 10 if anyone can make it).  Sometimes I wish I didn’t care so much, I think I would be a lot less stressed out.  My personal goal is to skate at a Regional Tournament, but I can’t make 13 other people have that same goal.  What if the rest of my team doesn’t have that goal, or the time or energy to make that goal a reality?  Then I have to let go, I can’t force people to want what I want.  We are a team, and we have to do what the team wants.  That is really hard for me to think or write because I don’t want to let go, I want people to work harder than I do.  Wow, I want, I want, I want!!!  I sound like a selfish little bitch. 

My Christmas List

1)      My new skate boots to be paid for (they are going to be amazing)

2)      Bearings

3)      Lift and Separate Booty Shorts in every color

4)      All my travel for 2011 paid for

5)      A plethora of thigh high tube socks

6)      A lifetime subscription to Hellrad

Is that too much to ask for?